Sitting here reading the Bible and challenging my thinking because my inner thoughts need some work. I feel like it’s a on going thing to keep working on challenging my inner thoughts. I have recently got to a healthy weight and have been in a good relationship all things that I didn’t have years ago so at times I struggle with the notion that I’m worthy of these things. That I have value and deserve a healthy relationship and a healthy body weight. Why it’s hard is what I digging deep to understand because my thinking can go like this, I’m thin now for now or I don’t want to bother him! What the mess of course I’m not actually a bother he has shown and told me so many times I’m more than enough but these thoughts still arise. I know I deserve to be a heated weight so my goal is to challenge these thoughts so I can feel of value and have better thinking. How can you challenge yourself to think better about yourself? For me blogging helps get out my thoughts and start to understand the why and address it. I know the relationship part is because pass relationship and I’m keep reminding myself that this relationship is and has nothing to do with the other. This is a healthy relationship filled with love and kindness! Is it perfect by no means but it’s healthy and thriving and will continue because we choose each other daily. As with my weight I know it has to do with being so heavy before and being told negative things that made me feel that’s what I deserved and that’s far from true! I deserve to be healthy and be told I look happy and healthy. I don’t deserve to be told I’m fat and lazy. I didn’t deserve it then and don’t deserve it now. So I will continue to work on these notions of untruth and love myself. God says to love ourselves not in a selfish way but in a way we see our value and worth because that’s how God sees us.
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